He's Just Using Me For My Ass

It may be true. I hope not, but it could be. Will it be enough to make him solely mine? I doubt it. But he wants my ass, and he wants it bad. I'm going to make him earn it. Especially since Aunt Flo is in town, goddamn womanhood.

Got pretty wasted the other night, huh? I dunno if what I said about my father is fact or insane creation of the mind. All I know is that when I was 12 or 13 I randomly told my mom that my dad carried me naked into the bathroom. It was around that time I discovered my clitoris and discovered that I felt dirty when I touched my breasts. I still do. Plus, I sometimes will still get a creepy, awkward feeling around him. And he definitely favors me. Still. I don't know. I probably never will.

I'm such a dirty pervert...I just smelled the washcloth before I did my laundry that Carl used the last time he was over to wash his post-sex privates. Smells just like the room does when he's about to come. It's such a turn on. I guess I'm a bit of a freak. What of it? Get over it.

Fuck. I wanna fuck him right now. Sexy shit.